Work

So, work. I never write about work itself because i spend too much damn time there.

But

maybe i should

I will start with the good. This week i won $50 in a contest with my fellow teammates. Only 3 of us won, same prize of 50 bucks, the breakdown is too complicated and you'd have to work there to get the metrics, so its whomever worked the most for a Friday (our slowest days always). This Month, January has been on one of my top months....ever. My numbers are great. Most widget ever! These are examples of widgets i put on Doctors profiles to direct patients to their ZocDoc profiles to drive up appointments, its so hard to get and we need to get at least one daily. Can you imagine calling offices to get login info for websites or web companies? That's a small part of my job. It's also the hardest because most people don't have that information readily available!

Okay the not so great news, i haven't done well at work before January. I was out with my awful wisdom teeth for 10 days and then December i was on vacation to visit home for the holidays. Unfortunately at my job, vacation days don't matter to them. So even though i had doctor's notes of bleeding out, approved vacation days, i was taken into a room and asked if I wanted to stay and if I liked working here. My number's were not bad, they just weren't at the top. They were in the middle. Bottom middle-ish. As mad as i was to be asked a stupid question like that, (i mean after all i took two cases with all i could fit my life into and moved from Florida to NYC) I thought, did i want to be there? I was upset. I asked Cory, he told me this,

"Even if you hate your job, you'll hate it more if you're the worst."

He was right, though, it's not THAT extreme, i don't HATE my job (we'll leave it at that) and i'm not the worst, he had a point. So i made a point to pick it up this month. I'm going to have to work my ass off since next month i have so much going on and im leaving for Disney Princess Run. May god give me the strength to keep my mouth closed and my head down working.

It snowed

I's very uncool how excited Cory and I get when it snows but we do. Everyone at work moans and groans but  I love it (only because i know I have a warm house to go home to).

Last night it snowed A LOT. It normally never stays on the ground, it melts quickly with the heat from the subway, not last night!

A Place to Call Home

New York City is a hard place to live. 

Everyone here is on a mission; without a strong sense of purpose, this city will swallow you whole. Rents are exorbitant — $2500/month is the going rate for a hideous studio apartment right now (mine is 1600, a steal and split with Cory and I, so like 800) — & a one-way subway ride costs $2.50. It adds up quickly. This is hard to deal with. Some people feel exhausted by this, think, ‘Why bother?’ & decide to live somewhere else. But some people choose to let it motivate them, push them hard, & turn them into the person they never even dared to dream they could be.

Even though this is not my MOST favorite place in the entire world, i do love it, and i know it’s not perfect. Nothing is. NYC is not all rooftop picnics & flowers from the bodega. There were plenty of times when I thought I wouldn’t be able to pay my rent, or when I walked around the city with a sad, confused homesick heart. But through all of that, I never doubted one thing: New York City itself. The idea of leaving never crossed my mind. I had chosen New York, & it had chosen me — for better or worse.

There is a lot of talk about “living your dream”, & some people think it’s balderdash. I believe in living your dreams, of course! But when we think about “living our dreams”, we make the mistake of thinking that everything will be easy, or that there is no effort required in making your dreams come true. That’s not always the case, & it sets us up to fail.

This can be very discouraging. Sometimes when we realize that what we really want isn’t going to be easy, we want to give up. When things don’t turn out the way we want them to, we lose hope. We think that if it didn’t work the first time, it never will. One of the most wonderful things about life is that there a million different ways of reaching your goal. There’s truth in the old (& somewhat disgusting) saying, “There’s more than one way to skin a cat.”

It’s very common to suffer from a kind of problem-solving myopia where we fixate on one outcome. When we do this, we essentially blind ourselves to all the other potential solutions, which narrows the likeliness of success.

You might not get to NYC on your first, second or even third try. But if you’re hungry for it, if you fall asleep dreaming of thundering subway trains & long, hot summers, & if you’re willing to scrape together every ounce of gumption & ambition you possess, you’ll get here. We’ll be ready & waiting for you.

On a lighter note, here are photos form my weekend:

Middle School

So a friend from Middle School, Abbey, uploaded this gem of a photo to Facebook. Thought it was worth a share.

Belvedere Castle

In the middle of central park lies a castle, Belvedere Castle

Christmas 2013 and Stuff

Our small but awesome Christmas Tree 

PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stockings (I'm Snoopy and Cory is Charlie Brown) with our Spirit Animals

Got Cory (one of many gifts Soccer related) an Everton Jerseys 

As an anniversary present, I got Cory and I tickets to see Spiderman, it was awesome. U2 did the soundtrack (Cory's favorite band) and wrote a lot of the play. I had heard nothing about the show beforehand, (Cory already had the soundtrack and had seen previews) so it was all new to me and extremely surprising. Spiderman actually flew into the crowd, the effects were so amazing i kinda forgot it was fake.

 My friend Angela who I work with, was able to get us tickets with an NYU discount (she just graduated)  so they weren't terribly expensive.  Though I could see why the tickets were so much, the sets, props, costumes, no detail was overlooked.

We were there super early cause we were so excited. Five minutes before it started there wasn't an empty seat in the house.

Last Night I Skyped with My Besties

And i kinda have to end with this photo

Back....Home?

There is absolutely nothing hard,
then leaving family and home
and coming back to work.
Also, I've said A LOT of the above. Shameful.